I swear DDP week is killing me, badly. Long hours in school, plus long hours in tuition. WHY IS CA1 TOGETHER WITH DDP???!!!!

I think I'm such a goner for this semester. Just, great.

On a side note, I went TGIF's (for the first time!) for Valentine's. Though it's expensive, the food wasn't too bad. But of course, it's the company that matters more than the food. ♥

Well, and the past weeks have been spent on lessons, labs, lessons, labs. This sem really sucks.

And the long day is about to start, yet again. ):

It's been over a month since I last blogged. School has been eating up my time; it's hard to breathe. What with the suffocating amount of work, with the screwed up projects, life is really - just no life.

I just realised I was supposed to post Bangkok photos here. But I actually still have a huge chunk of photos that I haven't edited and uploaded. Goes to show how much time I actually have. But here are just some teasers for photos first.



An advice from Jiaming, three quarters sky.



Yes, I'm a freak for the sky.

Then, some sights from Bangkok.









Somehow, we were all very fascinated by the name of the shopping mall.



And Singapore wasn't one of the countries on the balloons, aww.



Giant teddies!



Really, the sky in Bangkok was so much nicer than Singapore's.





A super failed attempt at taking shots with slow shutter. Without tripod, this is what you get, haha.



Starbucks breakfast!



You see the lanterns and you know it's Chinatown.





The freakingly crowded Platinum Mall (inclusive of Pratunam).



My first time eating at Baskin Robbins!



The awesome banana split! :)



One of the few group shots we had, at MK Restaurants.



The interesting bowls.



Steamboat!







I'm proud to say, the high score record was broken by dear and I! ♥



Some mini Korean town near our hotel.



Going into Arirang!





Arirang had a damn atas toilet.







Leaving Arirang!



Huge flower pot at BKK airport.



The boats that dear and I saw on the way back to Singapore.



Landing!

And these are the photos taken here and there. The ones that are missing belong to Madame Tussaud's & Underwater World! Hope I'll be done editing them soon!

So, the month of January flew by damn fast that I still feel like flying off some where for a holiday etc etc.

I think this year will be filled with people's 21st birthday celebrations. I went for Yiheng's in Jan, at a steamboat place somewhere in Bugis. It's nice seeing old friends after a long time, catching up and just talk, maybe reminiscence.



It made me realise that sometimes you really have to be the one to ask your friends out, if they are your close friends that you don't wanna drift away from. Though I'm an aloof person most of the time, I think it's important to have close friends to be there for you when you need them and vice versa. I can't just always wait for others to invite me out now, can I?

Though this is not someone's 21st, it was still a birthday which we celebrated for a friend in Jan.



Seeing how others plan for others' birthdays, sometimes I wonder if my birthday doesn't always fall on a holiday, will people actually do that for me?

Then there's the Feb birthdays, one that I've been, one upcoming, one I just missed today.



There, Nerdnerd's 21st! And I think it really had been years since I last saw him. And there resurfaces my theory of meeting up with friends and stuff.

Sorry that I missed Xiaoxuan's birthday party today. It's just that it's really quite a tight time for me. =/ Then there's Pengho's upcoming one on the 25th of Feb. Dear and I have already gotten his present! Let's hope the presents aren't too shabby for 21st birthdays...

What else in the month of January? Oh yes, I've completed my Twilight series in the start of Jan! Then there was the Let's Talk! event at Grand Hyatt, which was a tiring but worth it day since I get to earn 77 bucks, haha.

And I met up with Xiaodi too! A simple dinner, but an enjoyable time. Goes along with my new year resolution to meet and catch up with old friends eh. Lol. Come to think of it, this resolution had started last year end, meeting up with Hongdoumei! :) I'm planning more, at least with a few close friends.

I've recently proclaimed myself as a 24/7 relationship counselor. How cool is that man, yikes. I realised somehow a few people are turning to me for advice on relationships. Truth be told, I think that's a good thing for me. It helps me listen better, understand people, and actually learn from them. Relationships are like businesses. Easy to start, hard to maintain. It's not just about finding the right one, but also committing to the relationship, putting in the effort and time to keep the relationship ongoing, keeping it new and refreshing even though you've been together for a long time.

It's really saddening sometimes, to see the people around you fail in their relationships. It gives me a sense of insecurity sometimes, but then again, I know mine is blissful and nothing like that is going to happen. It's just the stress that has been adding on recently; it's really hard to concentrate on one single thing. Live life to the fullest, ain't it. Don't worry, let nature takes its course.

Sometimes, it really would be nice to have more than one person to talk about anything and everything.

And there's the GSS thing that I'm bothered about. Wire transferring, the extremely high school fees, the course matching, etc etc. The damned course matching is seriously getting on my nerves man. Time and time again it's rejected and rejected. And I don't get shit out of it. Great. I bloody need to clear my AHSS than UE. Screw the course matching.

I feel like I'm lagging so much behind in my school work already. And all the labs and projects are killing me since I have no idea how to complete them. Academic year 2 seriously sucks hardcore. And it seriously doesn't help when the school assigns you with lab partner that doesn't really help and that you can't really work with.

Let's just hope I pull through this semester.

On a side note, I'm looking forward to Valentine's no matter how simply dear and I are going to spend it. ♥

And I've added dear as an author to this blog! But I think it's going to be really really rare that he blogs here, haha.

And the second semester of Year 2 begins tomorrow.
The killer semester.
Let's hope I'm able to get pass the next sem, while maintaining my gpa.

So, the December holidays flew by in a blur, and the first week of January 2012 gone too. The exact start of the year (meaning midnight of 010112) hadn't been exactly good, but the week had turned out to be fine, better than expected.

Though there are still many things that I wanted to do in December but ended up not doing, well, there will be time for these things in future, I'm sure.

Things like:

• reading the whole series of Twilight (I'm only done with the first book)
  
• packing my clothes
  
• packing my books (which is really hard because I don't have enough space
  
• travel to many places, in and out of Singapore

The list could go on forever. But well, time.

At least I did get to go Bangkok for the whole of last week. It was a damn tiring shopping trip, but it's time spent overseas and I'm grateful for that. And I did get to visit Madam Tussad's and the Underwater World. :)

Surprisingly, or should I say shockingly, I spent all the money I changed for my Bangkok trip. How freaky. And think of all the money gone. ):

Anyway, another term starting, another stressful time's gonna begin. Let's hope things would be uh, more smooth.

I'll upload Bangkok photos in another post!

It's times like this, that you thought that things would finally get better, but it actually seemed to get worse, that is so upsetting&frustrating&sickening.

Sometimes it's so tiring to be the one to decide, to be the first to make the move, to always be the nagger, to feel like the only one putting in the effort.

I hate myself being so sensitive.

To think back about what I have accomplished in my life so far,
My life sucks.



Somehow it just seems like every time we talk nowadays, every time you hurt me, be it knowingly or not.

How am I going to survive if every time we talk, I cry?

And since exams have ended, it should be holidays right? Sadly, Singapore's education system doesn't really allow for that. There's always still something going on in the school. Like those students doing CIDP and DDP, and people like me, going to school for committee talks and yada yada.

Where's the holiday?

Being in school in an unearthly hour. Sucks.



Let's hope this day will turn out still fine. (:

I wanna buy Twilight books! And not the movie version, but the original version. Think I can get it at Popular? =/

I like the number on this post.

My cousin had her wedding lunch reception thing today. It's a small event, but you can see they're blissfully married and happy.

Sometimes, looking at the married couples, looking at their families and children and babies, I really wonder how would you know who is the right one for you...



Every single time I attend such events, I can't help but start to think.
I think I think too much.

My day started off pretty well, thinking that I get to see you...
But when I know I don't get to, my day just feels crushed and I have no mood for anything else. Is it just me? Or is what I feel true?

Must my life be dictated likewise?

Haha die ah, now I really feel like buying one from ebaY.



But anyway, half the day gone and whole of the rest of yesterday with no studying, lol. I better get back to work soon.



Photo credits to: Anton Tang

2 more papers to go!